GOLDENINNEREYE

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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

4 rasta

title seemed apt... looked at many options at this crucial juncture of my career.. looked at going to UK looked at getting into a local Mumbaiya B school, looked at doin a job and now am also considering sitting at home and preparing for entrance exams coming november... but none of these seem to be right...

my career is nt heading for the expressway... am evidently nt happy abt it, even my language is bored talkin abt whats happening on my career front... I've lived a leisure life in BMM... done projects at the very moment submissions were reqd, enjoyed graduation to the core, made compromises, made friends, made enemies, girls were mostly the part where depression stepped in. graduation was a quicky... didn't quite realise when I grew so big that I had to start slogging my ass again in the local trains... seemed only like yesterday when I was goin to percept for my interns and getting into crowded trains promising myself I wont get into a career where I'l have to travel in trains because I hated the people who had to suffer big time and return home at peak hours with stinking armpits...

ok am going beserk basically I wanna get into a B school bcoz It'll be another two years again in BMM and I'll get out wid a fat pay package where I'll lvoe to work coz money is a big motivator for me... rite now I dont wanna work my ass off for a meagre 7 grands I'm gonna be taking home... should I compromise with a small B school or should I try for the biggies... the problem is I dont wanna be one year into a job without a B school totally depressed blaming my boss that I couldnt study bcoz of workload... what will I do then?


Dad has troubles of his own.. a very personal post but then dad doesnt mention anything to me... so much of freedom i have that i'm worried no one's lookin over me and I'll go down d drain...

just another 10-15 marks in cet and I would've been comfortably placed am too occupied thinking abt this shit that I cant study for my final exams where I have to score atleast 75% to get an aggregate of 70% ... atleast I can go wid my held high then that my graduationw asnt such a disappointment...


seems at this crucial juncture where i have so many voices in my head and out of it I'm all alone...
this 4 way junction sux... and theres no guiding signal to save me from a crash either....
On my own now...

3 Comments:

  • At Thursday, March 27, 2008 , Blogger Anurag said...

    that's sad mann ......
    but it's ultimately gonna be you who decides what's best for you ....
    You are right ..it is crucial juncture of your life but am sure the decision you made after 12'th to go for bmm instead of something else ...you are going to make a similar decision and that decision is gonna prove fruitful like it did am sure during your grad days ...
    All the Best

     
  • At Tuesday, July 01, 2008 , Blogger Anurag said...

    Tagged ya :)

     
  • At Wednesday, October 22, 2008 , Blogger ray said...

    Hi,

    I was reading ur blog posts and found some of them to be very good.. u write well.. Why don't you popularize it more.. ur posts on ur blog ‘GOLDENINNEREYE’ took my particular attention as some of them are interesting topics of mine too;

    BTW I help out some ex-IIMA guys who with another batch mate run www.rambhai.com where you can post links to your most loved blog-posts. Rambhai was the chaiwala at IIMA and it is a site where users can themselves share links to blog posts etc and other can find and vote on them. The best make it to the homepage!

    This way you can reach out to rambhai readers some of whom could become your ardent fans.. who knows.. :)

    Cheers,

     

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